I went through something similar. I also had to put my dog down during a divorce so I feel your pain. He seemed so sad when he was going. It was like he knew what was going on in my life and was giving up. I'm sure it was in my head but I always have that memory of him being so sad when me and my wife were fighting in the end. My wife told me that if I put him down she would kill me. So sad.

I also know how you feel about being aggressive after your husband stopped talking to you. I went through something similar when I started dating again. I started becoming the aggressor and it scared me. I had to go to therapy. My therapist told me I was reacting to my wife's abuse. I was lashing out first before she could hurt me. I never used to be that way but therapy helped alot. I'm not aggressive any more. Hopefully you can get some therapy while you are going through this. I wish I had done so sooner.

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. It all sounds so painful. And, no support from your family it sounds like. I recommend you get some outside help since your family and friends are unavailable. You must be strong for your kids!

I have kids under 13 and they have seen and been through too much abuse as well. So sad for them. My oldest became obese after the divorce. She still struggles. Give them lots of love!!
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