thank you kindly for your response, it does make sense and i will do that, she has a huge file on me from just one week of paperwork i brought to her and she laughingly yelled at me for making her do so much reading.
ok so this is another incidant.
work is the trigger i know it is, the department had an upheaval recently, unfairly accusing the chief of stuff and ousting him from the dept wich makes for much unrest and no trust.
how sad when you have to depend on each other to watch your back when on the street dealing with scumbags and than having to watch out for the ones who are supposed to be helping you out.
he is a cop.
so here is the scenario.
He comes home from work and immediatly lays into me that it is MY fault the house is not finished being fixed up.
What he did, was, he ripped up several walls downstairs at random and never finished it, nor did he do what normal people do, that is, one room at a time.
nope, he had to go thru and demolish.
what i did for the last five years is COPE with this situation.
he yelled at me, Why didnt you fix this up?
Excuse me??
where is the reasoning here, the true reality.
Recently i found out my dad is dying, i also sold the last puppy in my litter and was so happy he found a good home. talk about emotional roller coaster, so i stopped at culvers quick for something to eat, we did agree that we would not eat out as it would save money, but, i felt a moment of weakness and normally i am a very good girl.
so he came in the house unexpectedly while on duty to drop something off and caught me eating my cod.
i shared it with him.
this was a week ago, last night it was brought up to me and a huge issue to him that i went to culvers when i agreed i would not go out to eat anymore.
he just would not let up on it.
so than the next morning
he woke up and is acting normal and is happy, he said he doesnt know why he is so up and down.
he did not apologize, i dont expect him to becouse i know he has an issue and does not realize it.
today i asked him if he wanted me to book a few appts in june for him.
he said please do.
he asked me if i was ok, and i said yeah, he said are you sure, i said yeah.
what else am i supposed to do?
arrggggggg
i see counselor tomorrow at 2
I am on such a roller coaster esp since the upheaval at the PD
before than it was only once in a while.
now it is all the time and the outbursts are worse and worse and more and more hurtful.
he is very needy now to.
i had given up dog classes or anything i did in my spare time, and the one time i took my puppy to class i had just gotten out and he was crying on my shoulder needing emotional help becouse he was depressed about a situation.
HOw do people handle this?
how much can a person take?