@susannahsays I hope it is okay to comment on your IST post. I just wanted to say that I understand completely what you are saying about wanting to act out because you are not able to express yourself. I usually acted in but I experienced the wanting to act out when I was hospitalized and felt like nothing was in my control (probably because it wasn't!). It's a very difficult place to be. HUGS. Can you email/text your T and just say that you feel like acting out because you couldn't express yourself? Or maybe journal. Or do an art project. A big ole messy art project. Might help. Maybe. HUGS. I hope you feel better soon! Kit