I feel better after talking with my therapist. I was able just to get some of my thoughts out.

I found out through my grandfather’s obituary that he actually designed my state’s most well know state university so logo! Like, the one they use to this day! That was so cool. I never knew that. I got some insight into his career, and I finally learned how he and my grandma met. I always wondered, but for some reason never asked her. Because she grew up and lived on the west coast, while my grandpa lived in my state which is on the eastern seaboard. Turns out he was stationed in Oregon and met her at a square dance that she was attending because her father called the...moves, I guess they’re called? I’m so glad I know now! I should have asked my grandmother years ago but I just never did.

An interesting fact I learned was that my grandfather ran all the republican campaigns for state officials in my state. One of his old friends wrote that they never lost an election except for the one where their candidate publicly mocked the other. My grandpa’s rule was always NO NEGATIVITY. Oh, if he had just been lucid enough to comprehend the last few elections! He would have been horrified!

I feel better about the upcoming funeral. I explained to my son the honor and significance behind receiving the military flag. I have ordered a shadow box for it and it will stay in my possession until my son has moved out on his own and can be trusted to take care of it. Even though I do not like the officiant I think it will be a nice service.