I'm not feeling well about things right now. I never did get a chance to fully forgive him. To me, forgiving him would have meant seeing him again and smiling at him as though everything was Okay. I'll never see him again. My daughter says they will do a celebration of life. I think that is nice. I do have some good memories of him. I have one that keeps playing over and over in my mind. I don't understand it. He hurt me so bad. Part of me wishes I could be at the celebration. I would be respectful. He deserves to rest in peace. I deserve peace too.