I am also going through a divorce, first timer. I feel similar. Some days in fine others I wonder why I even initiated the divorce. Of course logically I know why. He was emotionally and in the past has been physically abusive. Could be caring and sweet and amazing and then turn and fly off the handle with anger. Never knew what was coming. So with all of this how could I think that staying married an option or question my decision. Im constantly wondering what I did wrong. Its so hard like lo no
sing a piece of yourself. Tell me it gets easier. The divorce literally just this week