@SlumberKitty I did text her about wanting to act out and what I think I would be trying to accomplish by doing that. She has also suggested writing and art, but I'm worried that would just exacerbate the feelings because I would work myself up and then be unable to relieve the feelings.

She said another client had once found release in destroying some glass or porcelain items. Honestly, smashing some glass sounds kind of appealing but I keep thinking how wasteful that is. I guess I could then recycle the glass... She also said something about making a sort of voodoo doll and murdering it with pins (the doll would symbolize a certain abuser).