My therapist suggested in email that I may need a PHP program and I freaked out. On the 5th they asked for a $340 copay upfront for my surgery. So I’m going to actually owe at least 5 thousand for the actual surgery. I don’t have a job or much of anything saved up. I just hope they can do a payment plan. But I have absolutely no money for a PHP program. When I was signing up for insurance last year I basically had to choose between my physical or mental health and since I was having so many physical issues in 2019 I went that route.

But I’ve lost another 2 pounds putting it at 12 pounds since the 5th. I think some more swelling went down though. A lot of it is the visteril though. But I don’t need it. My anxiety is fine. So why would I take it just to be hungry? That’s dumb.