I don't want to commit sui but I'm done living like I am. I want out!!!!!! I didn't take any meds this morning. I did go to the gym to help clear my head, but it didn't work!

I have been working on furthering my education, but ran into a road block. My professors and supporting people don't believe I can make it through the program. I have two options that they gave me. Change programs or try and continue the current one with one assignment and only one attempt. I don't feel confident in only one try. Especially because I feel like my past is being used against me. I'm scared, no terrified!

I've been on meds for 15 years and with more challenges then the meds are worth. I don't want to do them. I didn't take them this morning. And I don't want to take a prn either.

And then I notice my nose starts to drip.