Aliaslux....

You are certainly not alone in jumping in to a relationship for all the wrong reasons. God knows I did that after my divorce. And, as a result I made a bad decision and it was a disaster. Then I didn't learn and went right into another relationship. This was also a disaster. Not because she wasn't terrific, she was, and is terrific. But, becuase my depression got in the way and I am no longer seeing her. Like you I invested everything into this relationship. Everything. So now I am feeling very isolated and very alone.

Feel fortuante that you are just turning 30. You have a lot of time. I will be turning 48 next month. And I know for sure that I will be eating cake alone. A far cry from my 40th birthday party when I was surrounded by my friends and family....... probably a good 60-70 people there. So much can happen in 8 years.

The relationship you were in sounded like it was a recipe for disaster. There is no rush. Take the time to sort things out and find out who you are and what you want. I wish I would of done that as my life would of turned out differently. But, it is never too late.