If... I had but one wish... I would gift it you...
my father..
we both know.. that you would use it.. to wish I had never been born... a daughter.. instead of a son.. a daughter.. of no use on a farm.. a child.. born with legs that needed to be fixed... and you.. not wanting to have to spend.. the money nor the time to do that.. after all... I am not your daughter.. I am my Mother's daughter.. you told me that enough while I was growing up - though.. I am biologically your child, I was never your daugther...

my wish.. gifted to my father... to be shared... with you my mother...
we both know.. that you would use it.. to wish I had never been born... you did not want children.. your mother.. my grandmother.. forced you into having children... you.. my mother.. a pioneer for women.. in a day in age where women did not get BS degrees.. did not get masters degrees.. did not become principals of schools.. you didn't care... with whom.. you left me.. if I ate breakfast.. if there was food to have breakfast...

my wish gifted to my father shared with my mother and then.. shared again.. with you.. my older sister..
we both know... that you would use it.. to wish I had never been born... you did not want a younger sister... alot of older sibs do not want younger sibs.. but you really did not want a younger sib... you focused your anger on me...our father.. abused you.. then turned to me.. and you blamed me.. for losing your father... at his funeral.. a few short years ago.. you did not acknowledge that we were sisters.. that we were sibs.. that I had a father... you.. you.. were the only one that had a father.. you were the only one that had a father that died...

me... my name is "Nothing".... an alter of freewill's... "Nothing" is my name because I am nothing.. worthless.. of having no value...

I have changed my mind... I keep my wish.... and I will use it for me..

I wish.. to be granted... that I was unborn..

The world... and my "family"... to be left in a better condition... for never having.. had me ...living.. ever... in the fist place...

I save you all the trouble "my family".... to even having to have to make a wish - it is too much effort.. for you to expend on me...

"Nothing".... a nothing...