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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal
It doesn't sound stupid at all, being scared of changing. 
I don't know if if helps any but I am scared of changing, too. Scared of changing myself to become the person that I know is inside of me, and scared of changing t's both.
it's a really weird thing but I think that familiarity is more comfortable (even when it HURTS) than the unknown. |
Some of what he said actually made sense to me though and I wasn't upset and I did feel better after session. I know I am too dependent on him and he's trying to cut back on that and I need to find ways to try to fill my own emotional needs rather than relying on others to fill that gap for me. I know I can be highly manipulative and maybe a T giving me full control is what I want but not what I really need. I want more gentleness, hand holding and I want full control at the same time.
It used to make me sad thinking about the person I could have been if x or Y had not happened but the fact is that it did happen and the me I am is the only version of me.
I hope you can reach the point where you feel like your true self .