I'm fourteen and I've just started high school. Because of Covid, I've had a withdrawal from society and I don't talk to any of my friends anymore. However, I've found a really great community of friends on Discord and I feel that they are the only people who make me feel happy anymore. At home, I get yelled at almost everyday. I've noticed my grades have been dropping, and my parents say it is because of my online friends. Even when I am doing homework and not talking to anyone, my parents burst into my room and yell at me because I am not done my homework. Because of my parents, I lost my desire to do well in school and complete my schoolwork, because no matter what I will get yelled at. In my midterm report card, I got 1 A and 2 B's which I thought was not bad. The 2 classes I had gotten B's in are taught by a really strict teacher and most of the class had gotten the same grade as me. I am in a program for so-called 'gifted students' and I'm really proud of myself. However, my parents overlook this and don't care about any of my achievements. They only see my bad grades and say that I will never get into university. My dad has even resorted to doing random checks in my laptop and phone. Earlier today he took my phone and said he will yell at all of my friends in it and tell them not to talk to me. I was doing homework just now and he came over and searched through my settings. I have no idea what he was looking for. Yesterday I took a break and was watching some Netflix, and he came in and yelled at me because I was not doing homework. I'm sorry that I didn't finish; it's due next week and I am already done a quarter... I really want to run away from home and cry. Once, my father checked a homework assignment of mine and i got 2 wrong out of 25. He yelled at me and said I will never accomplish anything. He's always yelling at me. On 2 occasions he had slapped me and hit me, and he has even made me slap myself. He said if I didn't slap myself, he would hit me. I am so angry at myself whenever I smile at home, because this house reminds me of all the horrible things in my life. Every single bad thing that happened outside pales in comparison to what I experience in this house. I want all of my happy memories to be associated away from this horrible horrible home. But I understand my dad's anger. In the summer and early spring, when I had no school and was just home all day, I talked to my friends and played games everyday. I had even stayed up at night playing. My parents didn't mind at first, then started to care in the summer. They would take my laptop away and I would sneak downstairs and steal it back. Then they started to cut off my wifi at 10:30, and I was angry about this but said nothing. Recently, they made my wifi cut off at 8:30 so I cannot even finish my homework. They expect me to finish a giant project the day I am assigned it; they want me to work on it nonstop until I am done. I am allowed no breaks. Then when I say my wifi is cut off, they yell at me because I am not done. I am also very easily distracted; I talk to my friends a lot and I procrastinate.. I understand why my parents would be angry. Am i being abused or do i deserve this?