Thank you for your speedy reply Roxanne!! I think you read me correctly. I guess he supported me more when I was the old self that went to this church with him but couldn't envision me as anybody else besides that old self.

I guess at one point in time, like at the height of our friendship, I would have gone in a heartbeat. But even when there's not a pandemic and improve my outlook on this situation I would probably not attend. However, there are a couple of other friends who are much closer to me and have stayed close that are getting married next year, and I want to prioritise my social and mental energy for such occasions.