Thinking of you. My husband cheated too. I thought we were forever, and he left. Me and 8 kids. 23 years together, 6 more married but separated. Now I’m divorcing him. He abandoned us. It’s for the best that I make it final, even if I never love again. (I don’t believe in second marriage, even after divorce) allow yourself all the grief- sometimes life sucks. There is always hope, always healing.