Hey gimmeice,
Meant to thank you too for replying! It's weird, I just re-read my post and tried to do so as if I hadn't been the one who wrote it to see how clear it could be that I'm avoiding the issue of what to do with myself.
How the heck did I get to this place where all I think about is me but make no progress at getting out of me?
Talk about navel gazing, more like navel micro-analysis!
Bye for now, thanks again.