Why couldn't I tell my therapist today. I was so ready to tell him what's going on but I just didn't say it.

I left work at noon yesterday, and called in sick today. I'm scared to go back.

My therapist disagrees with my psych nurse on the diagnosis. Wonderful. And I'm not assertive enough to explain what's going on.

I didn't tell him that my internet addiction happens at work. He thinks it's at night. I didn't tell him about this recent thing with that huge project that I just couldn't do.

Why why why am I so open on the internet to complete strangers, but in therapy I just freeze up?? I answer his questions, but I don't just speak up and say something beyond what he asks.

Maybe I'm not even as mentally ill as I want to believe I am. Maybe it's all just a cover to hide my mistakes. I don't know.