After +10years messing relationships up because of problems with focusing, self-care and caring for others, isolating like an hikikomori at 25/30+... I find myself panicking because i don't know how to reply to a person/friend who texted asking "how are you?" Including a big smile
I failed at life, what can I say Now
Been unemployed for so long... how to tell it
I had plenty of time to fix mi life a bit, i can't believe she (this person who texted me) "left" me in a bad condition years ago just to find me in a even worse situation today
And I was the one who ran away from people

I've been a ****ing black-hole

Now she can visualize on whatsapp that I read her message but i don't know what to say