This morning my husband chose a movie HE wanted to watch. Ok, fine, I was busy on my computer. Next, I tell him I get to choose something that I want to watch. So he takes the remote and tries to choose something for me. I ask him to give me the remote so I can choose for myself. Then he pretends to not allow me to, then tells me that he is enjoying watching me get worked up over wanting the remote and over wanting to choose my own show.

Later I ask him, did you really enjoy pissing me off over having control over the remote? He says he was just "joking" and that I take everything literally. I tell him, that's an odd joke. I truly was getting pissed off that you wouldn't let me choose my own show to watch. He then says, every one of my jokes is odd to you.

Yeah. When you enjoy pissing me off? And then try to pawn it off as a "joke"? What the hell is that? That's similar to his mean put down comments that are disguised as "jokes". By explaining it away as a joke, he is able to get away with this behavior. I don't like it. And I am tired of having to tell him it isn't OK with me.

Now we are at odds again.

These are the situations that make me think there is NO HOPE. And when I feel there is no hope, I feel like divorce is inevitable. And perhaps it really is at this point.

As soon as I get a job, I will feel better.