Absolutely. Sometimes it's a "lie" of omission and sometimes it's an outright lie. I may or may not come clean about it. Many times it is not a conscious act and I just find myself lying as a defense to being vulnerable. Sometimes I catch myself doing this, examine whether I am being paranoid, and then disclose the truth. There are also times when she has just called me out or not responded to a lie because she knows I'm lying.

I don't feel bad about lying 99% of the time. In your situation, I would probably feel simultaneously guilty and also angry at the therapist for putting me in the position of making such a promise.

The therapist has asked me to promise not to do something really destructive maybe 2 or 3 times, but it's not a promise with an indefinite expiration date. I do still feel somewhat irritated by being asked to promise, as I like to keep my options open, but it being an ongoing discussion where I feel like I'm still in control of what I do helps.