Thanks, ECHOES, that is exactly what I experience. I am just intensely shy and do not like exposing myself to others, I just consider a lot to be "private." I seem to have largely gotten past this with T in the safety of his office, but the whole divorce has been another story, with all this stuff that 2 lawyers, a child therapist, a financial person, and a career counselor have to know about me, sometimes I think unnecessarily. I sometimes work in therapy on managing those feelings of exposure to strangers. I even have flashbacks of traumatic experiences as a child, where people stood by and "watched" me as I was in pain. We work on that in therapy too.

RE Xanax: I only occasionally take a half a pill of the lowest dose at night--it puts me to sleep during the day. My doctor says there is no lower dose format to go to and I am just very sensitive for some reason.