You have every right to be shocked, angry, and frightened and lost right now. I am trying to not feed your fear if I can, but to help you not go into a panic and acting on inpulse. It's so normal to all of a sudden not trust and be fearful. Also to start seeing things concerning. You certainly can't change what your husband did and it's understandable you are thinking back and adding up the signs too. It's hard right now, yet, it's important to keep your head above all these confusing feelings.