I've been thinking about X the pharmacist a lot recently. You might think it's weird that I think of him as a friend even though he was 20 years older and technically my boss, but I get attached to everyone. If I'm being honest I didn't like him when I first met him, but it was all the little things that add up for me. They'd order pizza for lunch and give me some too. He'd always check up on me. Never got cross either and he'd drive me home after work at night and never took petrol money when I offered. Never told him that I loved him and I don't have any recordings of his voice and I'm scared I'll forget.

During our last meeting he handed me the effing tissues when I cried.

Just thinking how does acting like my parents in a way (not meeting my needs) help me? The voice in my head tells me its because I don't deserve it.

Are the others right about you and I just don't wan to see it?

I also have a feeling that you won't remember to email me to reschedule because of my physical exam.

Also two weeks to my exam from tomorrow.