Fuzzybear,
Thanks for chiming in. I understand about being a private person because I am generally “that person” too. I feel fairly comfortable here and who better to ask than those similarly situated in some form. I get what you are saying...it is overwhelming how much people’s lives can be so similar. Seems as if I see some trait in each person’s response that is a duplicate of my own.
I truly feel my mom was disconnected and depressed for a long time, likely from some questionable issues in her youth. Pure speculation but with good cause. Lots of questions regarding her childhood and youth that still are unknown. Maybe it’s just a viscous cycle but...those are meant to be broken, right?
Be well!