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Originally Posted by BethRags
So our weather took a sudden turn from stuffy-warm to real autumn chill and wildly windy. I am so grateful for the cooler weather, but the sunlight is lower and the usual feeling of dread/gloom/grief/loss (I guess it's depression? But it feels like vicious anxiety, too) has crept in a bit today. It's by no means really bad, yet. I can handle it, at this point. This year will be especially challenging because of not seeing my pdoc and T f2f. Oh, well...back to "telemedicine is better than nothing."
I miss my children, they're so into their own lives - which is wonderful! - it's just that I miss them. And I sure don't see any grandchildren coming along. With the exception of my older sister and my BIL all the older people in my family are dead. It's at this time of year that the losses feel acutely present.
Anyway. I could ramble on. Off to watch the World Series.
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This seems to be happening from Vancouver to maybe San Luis Obispo or so. It was 80 here and then, two days later, it is 33. Shocking. Summer to winter. Like that.
My depression is typically Oct.-Apr. So far, this year, my mood is pretty flawless. New med. Yay.
I still have not spoken to my precious son in 12 yrs. Bad divorce, bitter mommy. Sad. My daughter is 12, though, and is going to be doing all school work from my place now. She got an F! Hope I can support and love her.
Be strong. Persevere. It is how we survive together to help each other tomorrow. Hugs!!
Hugs!!