I actually slept last night!!! Yea!!! So with more clarity, I was able to think straight. He asked a couple days ago if he could stop and pick up some more clothes. He packed d for himself which he hasn't had to do for 23 years and I guess he forgot warmer clothes and such. I really don't want to see him, but I don't trust him. I want to be here when he comes. I have to see him tonight so I texted him did he want to come this morning and get his stuff before kids wake u. (trying to protect the kids from seeing their father take more of his stuff out of the house.) He texted back he couldn't this morning because of appointments but how about another day this week? i texted back I have to think about it. He said ok. End of conversation.

I do need to think about it. Today so far has been good. I also feel like I need to reclaim some of my power. He's been calling all the shots for soooo long! He wants to talk every day. I decided I don't. I need space . Don't think he's happy about that but oh well. He can call the kids directly and find out how they are.

next obstacle... I'm going out of town for a girls weekend with my friend. We both need it. He needs to step up when I'm gone and do what needs to be done with the kids. I plan on texting him a little later about this. I'm not going to word it as a question. I have back up if he gives me crap, but these are his kids too. He can see what I have to do day in and day out. I'm giving him 3 weeks notice so he can arrange his schedule to take them where they need to be.

any advice on how to word the text? I hate this!!! I feel like I'm playing games, but I also feel like I'm walking a minefield and trying to keep my sanity.