My mind is now made up. I've dealt with abuse from him on and off for a year and a half and I'm done.

This is my vent about what's happened most recently that tipped me back in the direction of a divorce (I almost divorced him in July, but he convinced me he would change his ways):

So right now, I am getting really angry over ALL the crap I've endured from him.

The icing on the cake for me was yesterday and the final nails in the coffin for a divorce:

We were at Home Depot yesterday. He took a picture of a lower price than what the item we were buying cost.

The item we were buying did not have a sticker with the price on it. I am certain the item cost $17.99 because that's what it said on the self beside the item.

So he took a screenshot of a far lower price on the shelf, showed it to the clerk, and then got away with paying a LOT less for a higher priced item. We paid $3 for an item that cost $17.99 because of what he pulled. He did this DELIBERATELY, in knowing it cost more. NO integrity. I would never do something like this ever - not at this age. Maybe when I was 15!

That was it for me. He defends his so called "integrity", yet practically steals from Home Depot for a matter of a difference in $15???

He is not trustworthy at all. And he proved it to me by doing this..... yet another instance of dishonesty. There have been multiple instances of dishonesty that I've experienced with him. Yet he claims (and yells at me) that I should trust him 100%. BS. He is just not trustworthy. Him practically stealing yesterday was appalling to me.

He also openly stated to me that he was getting pleasure out of making me upset and angry yesterday. This is yet another abuse tactic and is about control over me. That is not love... it's abuse.

And last week he said to me "sure, I don't give a s-h-i-t" when I wanted to do something nice for him, ie, bring him his lunch while he was working. He could care less, apparently.

And the week before, he blew up at me, yet again, in a fit of anger. There have been more than two dozen of these instances throughout our marriage -- many abusive rages at me. This one was borderline abusive.

And within the past couple weeks in bed he called me "one way sally" when he woke me up to fool around, but he pleasured me 1st, and I accidentally fell asleep again. One way sally?? What an insult and how hurtful. The week before I had pleasured him without ANY reciprocation. What an A-hole!

I am so done with listening to his excuses, his BS and his justifications around his bad and abusive behaviors. DONE.

And I am done with being treated this way. DONE.

He is an abuser and always will be. He is dishonest and dishonorable and always will be. Character does not change and no amount of couples therapy will fix poor character. I considered couples therapy for a while, but now I have zero interest in it.

I am listening to my own self and what I think now, and I am no longer taking his BS excuses.

This guy is of low character. And I deserve far better.

As soon as I get a job, some income, savings and a lawyer, I am telling him.

There's a whole backstory to the abuse in my prior threads. This is the tipping point.

I am going to need a lot of support over this, while I keep it secret from him until I am ready. Thank you in advance for any supportive replies. I will need the help over the next coming weeks.