Being small is difficult to bear. It’s called “dysphoria”. It’s the opposite of euphoria. I too am incredibly small. It’s been a problem as long as I’ve been alive. There isn’t much of a solution. Other than to simply embrace what is. I still struggle with it. I’ve followed up on some of these folks who tend to end up in one or two categories. Becoming gay or a cuckold. Neither of which are appealing to me. I feel your pain, you’re not alone in your struggle.