What is wrong with me (F26).
I feel like everyone else makes life look so easy - they just find something that makes them happy and then that's it. For some reason I don't even know what I want from my life. When I was younger, I assumed I wanted marriage and kids etc. and the usual things, because that's what you see around you and expect to happen. It was ok to dream about it at the time because it seems a distant thing that would happen 'one day' in the future, so there were no fears about daring to think about it. Now I'm edging towards 30, I feel like the 'future' is here, and I need to hurry up and make some decisions. I have a job that I like, and that could offer potential for a lifelong career. That is all I know. I don't know where I want to live, what kind of relationship I want, if I want kids. This is damaging my current relationship (we're currently discussion whether or not to break up), because she is ready to start making these plans and I just can't make my mind up. I never understand how people can be so 'sure' that they're with the right person, that they can plan to spend the rest of their lives with them. How can you decide something that big that essentially decides the rest of your life? I love my partner but is this a red flag that she's not the right person? Or just that I'm too scared to make plans and therefore getting in my own way? It's not just my relationship though - I feel unable to plan for or commit to anything very far in advance. I feel like you never know what life will throw at you so I'm scared to plan and decide things that may later turn out different. How do I get past this?