I don't like arguing with my husband, and especially not in front of others. [His friend is here.] But he is a jerk sometimes. I sent a text to the stager saying one thing, then a few minutes ago he says "She's not going to use my art!" Well, in my text to her, I implied that she could. Now I'm in a position where I've misled her because Hubby suddenly vetoed the idea. This is far far from the first time. He can get so stubborn and unaccommodating! Almost like a big baby!

It was nice that Hubby went to the grocery store earlier. I wasn't up to it with my ankle, plus it was nice to be alone for a bit. I know that in Czech Republic I will need to find "alone time". He'll likely still be home most of the time, plus I realize I will depend on him a lot in the beginning, because of the language issue.

A couple weeks back, my psychiatrist basically ordered me to talk to my therapist about having a "family meeting". Well, I talked to her and specifically mentioned pdoc's order. In the end, predictably, she pretty much agreed with my thoughts on the situation. That there's nothing much more to say. She asked me a few questions, the answers of which were things I've mentioned several times. I'm not saying that she doesn't listen, but I think she's at a loss for how to guide me through this stressful period. I mentioned that my mood had been elevated enough for some notable med changes by pdoc. Her response, which is common from her, is "The last time we talked [meaning 6 weeks ago] you seemed pretty stable to me." Umm, so what was I supposed to say to that? Everything has actually been peachy keen and I'm lying to you about it all? This is a major reason why I do not seek her when having psych issues. I instead contact my psychiatrist. He knows me. She really doesn't, and there's no sense working on her getting to know me given my forthcoming departure. She doesn't "get it"! Plus, when I have sought her in between sessions, she always says she doesn't have time to fit me in. My psychiatrist always does.

The stager just responded to my text. I asked that my husband now be the main contact, that I am stepping back a bit. By the way, I am doing much better today than I had been. I guess the med changes have helped.