Hi everyone! I haven’t been on here for a while. Mostly because I’ve had nothing to say. The Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia have been bad so my capacity to do things is limited. It has been bad all year, but I’m starting to see some improvement. Last week I even made it to a big shopping centre for half an hour without going into a crash after.

Mostly, I read books, research stuff online, rest, meditate, play guitar if possible, socialise, and watch TV. All done in two hour blocks with rests in between. Some days I can do more. Some days I can barely leave bed. On top of this I am tapering slowly off benzodiazepines. I started in February when I was taking up to 8 mg of Clonazepam a day (160 mg diazepam equivalent). Now I am down to 45 mg of diazepam a day. As I get to lower doses the withdrawals are tougher so I go slower in smaller increments. The withdrawals have been very bad twice in this time and I’ve had to up dose or hold until it eases. The withdrawals can be dangerous. I was psychotic at one point after tapering too fast. Thankfully, increasing the dose got rid of the psychosis.

Anyway, although it’s been tough going I am happy and mostly peaceful. I think all the meditation helps. Also, my moods have been stable for twenty months, and PTSD for over three months. That has been wonderful. Finally, I have a new psychiatrist after a three month gap since my last one retired. She seems wonderful. I’ve only seen her once, but I feel confident she is the right fit for me. At the moment I only need her for meds. Hopefully, it will stay that way.

Hope everyone is ok. I haven’t read any posts yet, but hope to get back into it next.