good morning! i'm new here (i signed up a couple years ago but never did anything) and am just trying to figure out how to post something, so please forgive me if i do it wrong.

i've been intensely up/down lately and pretty wildly emotional out of nowhere, or so it feels, and i feel i've been relying on the support of friends too much and am starting to drain some of them- which i truly don't want to do- so i'm looking to spread my needs for expression out more so as not to be as overwhelming...with the additional hope that maybe i'll be less overwhelming to myself too!

today has started ok tho- i fixed up my acct here, which is a start, and i feel lonely and quiet, but ok. and loneliness is normal these days- so many are lonely w coronavirus around changing things. still hard tho.

i've been having trouble with depression/anxiety/paranoia the most recently. i find i want to go back to bed halfway through the afternoon bc it just feels like more than i can manage to do to keep myself up, active and ok for any longer than that. i literally hide under the covers. but i'm trying to approach it from a place of "it's ok. as long as you're keeping up minimal housework and self care stuff, and doing at least a couple things beyond that (like creative work or attempts at it), you can hide in the covers if you need to."

after all, we can't be our best all the time and the world is not an easy place to live in right now. just trying to build as many non overwhelming pleasant things into each day as possible- which means small things mostly, but that's still ok.