I don't have an answer for this, but I can defenetly relate
when I was younger (a lot younger) I imagined myself going to school, completing school, compleeting colledge, completing university, then getting a job as a ride engineer at a theme park. that was my life sorted
in that time, I got mental health issues far too early, left school before I even hit senior year, got told that because of the severity of my issues I couldn't work,
lost family support, lost most of my friends, developed fibro, and now I dont know what I want.
I am younger than you are (24) and think the same way
like: what do I do. I feel like, at the moment, I've been abandoned without an instruction manual
hhugs!