I’m sorry I tried to die without calling you. But you see, if I want to die then there is no reason to call you, because you only want me to call so you can talk me out of it. It’s the same reason I wouldn’t be able to leave you a suicide note, or say final goodbyes, because you would know my plans then. I could send you a letter because it would take some days to reach you. I feel ok about doing it now, I’m not scared at all.