i feel i'm starting to do a little better than i have been lately. i've decided sometimes you just have to do your best to take your life back, almost by force if you have to, when you have been overwhelmed and somewhat paralyzed a really long time.

so coming back and trying to start interacting on this site was one of my ways of trying to get things back on track. it is a big site, which makes me nervous, but i'm sure i'll learn my way around.

i'm also trying to learn to get back into some of my more creative habits, and just manage day to day life needs better again. i've been experiencing a lot of emotional storms that feel like they just fall on me out of nowhere and whirl me around for maybe 3 days...and then plop me back down somewhere in the middle again, wondering what on earth is going on with me. i am someone who needs to talk about their feelings a LOT to process them and i have been doing so too much and too endlessly with friends- most of whom are also having their own difficulties. many ppl are right now. so i'm hoping this site will help me cope more "independently" by talking in a more neutral space where there's no pressure on anyone to read or respond.