I’m doing not too well today. But I did see my therapist in person. So that’s good. I felt like the session went well. We talked about the Pdoc appointment on Tuesday. Also in person. I said that went well. She asked me if he had talked to me about the melatonin or not. And I said “well actually... he told me that you emailed him.” And she said something like “oh yeah how did that make you feel?” And I said something like “well I wasn’t going to bring it up unless you did because I usually just keep stuff like that to myself, but it kinda annoyed me.” And she said “yeah I figured it did” then we talked about how it was a safety issue.” And I said “Now I don’t know what to tell you and what not to tell you.” But she could tell I was pretty pissed. I said I was not a typically angry person but how I was angry this morning and at my mom which I’m not usually and she thinks it’s because I was annoyed at her instead of my mom and my mom is a safe person. I honestly think the remeron is ****ing with my moods today. But at least I got a decent session in. I said my chest felt like it was in Vietnam and T paused for a split second and said “I bet.” My mom laughed and said she probably had no idea what the eff I was saying but therapists are trained not to judge. I just feel like a moody mess today.