This woman flirted
With me out in
The open at work in the office,
Even though she was married.
I did not flirt back,
As I was in
A serious relationship.
It was horribly uncomfortable
And I was not OK with it.
In a way
She outted me.
When I decided
To leave the company
She doubted my
Ability in front of everyone.
Pressing me to
Not quit entirely
Incase my move
To the new job
Did not work out
And I would have
Them to fall back on.
I really felt
Like she messed me around.
I don't think she
Realised how smart and switched
On I actually am.
She was just looking
For a fun fling.
I only took
The job because there
Was nothing else available
For young women in my area.
That many people
Told me that it
Was better than
My previous position
But it still did
Not do me justice.
I only texted her a couple of times
And nothing was
Ever going to come of it.
What is it with
Women who think
That it's not classed
As cheating if
It's with another woman?
That it will pass
As just a bicurious phase
And all will be forgiven?
She was never
Going to leave her husband for me.
I was never under that illusion.
I promise not to talk about it.
You have my word.
I spoke to a woman online
When I was 18. She was 21.
I suspected I was interested
In woman for years before.
That was the first
Time I acted on it.
We had nothing in common really.
Both just needing
A friend to talk to and experimenting and
Finding out what
We wanted from our sex lives.
She would have met me
In a hotel
If my then old flame
Was not so possessive.
She saw right
Past my facade
I'm no actress.
I think about
The stereophonics singing
The handbags and glad rags.
If I smile nobody will see
How much I'm hurting.