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Originally Posted by MisterPaul
You've been dealing with a troubled person. The only treatment you need is to discard that individual (my favourite  , sorry for dark humor).
I've been struggling with emotions for quite a while and I had very deep seated inability to recognize my own feelings, especially in distress. I believe the crucial point for you is to think... and rethink... and think again... and point out the exact things/situations/outcomes that keep you awake at night. Then find reasons why it happened and how to avoid it in the future. Type it all down if you're okay with it. And then you'll find at least some peace. |
Thank you for your input and thoughts.
I do keep a journal -- of everything that's happened AND of all of my emotions as they occur. I re-read my different journal entries often, and this is what helps me to identify my emotions, while in turmoil.
He is to be discarded. He is not worthy of ME at all, OR of my love. This is not love, it's abuse, and it's toxic and most unhealthy. I see that he does not truly love me. He wants to control me, dominate me, demean, diminish, and subjugate me. That is NOT love.