You remind me so much of my sponser, David. Last month was his two year sobriety mark and man has he gained wisdom in these two years! He was one of the few who went into treatment unwillingly (he was sentenced to 2 years in prison and received treatment there to shorten his sentence), but came out very willing. When I first started getting clean, there were times I questioned how bad I wanted sobriety. I'd be going through a hard time and fall off the wagon and go drink and/or get some meth and just get doped out. I'd go to my meeting the following day and he'd always ask me, "Did you stay clean yesterday?", and I'd always tell him the truth knowing he was fixing to give it to me straight up without sugar coating it! lol Then it got to where I really started wanting my sobriety and my sanity more than anything, so I started focusing on that instead of my problems at home. So instead of him asking me if I stayed clean, he'd ask me what time I woke up that morning... If I woke up before him, he'd always smile and say, "You've been clean and sober longer than me", and of course if not, it was the opposite. Why? Because I was constantly battling the thought of never using or drinking again, I mean it seemed like an eternity! But through Davids patiences and up lifting spirit, he taught me that thinking of it one day at a time makes sobriety a lot easier to handle. Because of all this, I am a firm believer in going to meetings. Those same people who used to offer you dope to help bring you down with them were now the ones lifting you up. I won't say I'll never drink or I'll never do drugs again, because I don't know what the unknown holds. I just know that my Higher Power is helping me get through today.