I thought I got that name from you. I used to call it "Heart paranoia" or what my mom was diagnosed with decades ago called "Hyperawareness of the heart syndrome".

At least you didn't abuse stimulants so the electric activity of your heart should be ok. If heart disease runs in your family, you have a decade to fix that and the best thing for it is exercise and eating healthy.

I often impulsively buy sugary things like pop, chocolate, candy, etc.. But everything else is healthy - Vegetables, .. I even go into phases of wanting to do keto, fasting, etc... Water is very important.

You can do anything you want in life - Snort coke, steal peoples jewellery, throw babies out the window - But make sure you don't drink TAP WATER.

I used to check my pulse 300 times a day. Now it's only 10-20 times a day because of the atenolol. I remember the first time I saw my current doctor;

I came in anxious as hell and panicking saying "The last doctor I saw in this clinic said that it's all in my head" and I told him about having to lie down on the floor at work and check my pulse because it's slower when lying down. He checked it and it was 106bpm. He prescribed atenolol and I remember 40 minutes after first taking it - The pain, intense suffering and anguish went away better than benzos.. My heart slowed a little..

The heart OCD started after my bad trip. All of my OCD thoughts were compacted like the singularity of a black hole into checking my pulse through my ribs. For 3 years, that was the only OCD I had left.. Checking the pulse..

Anyways it's all good though now.. You'll never get that bad. It would take decades of neuroplasticity without the quick neurogenesis of psilocin.

I didn't mean to make this post so long. I would give you some advice Newtus but I'm not even sure what to do about myself.. So far I'm getting better.. One step at a time - You're anxious but you have good ways of dealing with it. You're a creative genius.