I really regret the email. Thank you for replying and saying what I said wasn’t stupid. I don’t know how I’m going to hold on until Tuesday to talk about it. And at the same time I never want to talk about it or see you again. Why do I never learn?! I just want to disappear. I know what I need to do is look after myself but I have aaaaallll the urges to do the opposite And I don’t know which part will win