doing ok today. it's pouring snow where i live, but only sticking to tree and housetops so far.

yesterday was a nothing day for me. i managed to get my most basic chores done, send out some late halloween cards i made, and that was pretty much it. i slept or daydreamed in bed most of the day and then through the night, and got up at 3 am. i just felt really low energy and emptyish- like i had no will or desire to do anything. even eating was hard. i think the highlight of my day was finishing off some blueberries i'd frozen, lol.

i'm pretty determined today will be better. i have things i want and need to do to get ready for tomorrow, and a small homework assignment i need to do. i don't mind if i feel i need to go to bed early again, just not SO early and for so long. i know i can't get back on track completely overnight. i had been feeling a little better for a few days, but it melted away temporarily. it's ok. at least i'm beginning to get glimpses of how things "used to be" when i wasn't feeling this way, and start to copy the actions around them to try to get back closer to a state i'm happier w.

take care everyone.