I'm suffering from acne, still. And I've done research and discovered there's a link between acne and mental health. That people with acne often suffer with depression and low self-esteem because of it.

I've been researching on how to deal with this. I'm trying positive affirmations, but it's so hard when I look in the mirror and see how horrible my face looks. I'll be fine, look in the mirror. And suddenly my emotions are spiraling, I fall apart crying and just feel so horrible about myself. In my mind, no one is ever going to love me or want to be with me if I look this way. I think I look so ugly. I'm seeing a dermatologist, but the treatment isn't working. I have a medical condition that causes a hormonal imbalance. I'm doing everything. All the right things, and skin care procedures. I'm doing everything right. And my face still looks awful.

I feel like my life has become, for several months, just a battle with my acne. Trying and trying, and fighting, and spiraling emotionally. But I can never win.

I don't know what to do anymore. Professional help isn't helping. I can't just hide away forever, I have to work and live my life. But I don't feel like I will ever be attractive again and it really devastates me. I wish I knew how to feel better about this but nothing helps. I'm so tired of fighting this fight.