I'm a nervous wreak right now! Husband is coming over this morning to get some more clothes. Since he's never had to pack a bag himself, he has none of his warmer work clothes. At first I was concerned this was going to be more stuff, less likely to come back to the table. I don't feel that way anymore. I am however completely confused on how to act. I have a feeling he keeps waiting for me to blow my stack, or get weepy. I fight these urges every day. More for myself than for him. I m just so confused on how to act around him. I want him to know I care, but I don't want to come across as a doormat. I think my behavior is completely foreign to him. Quite frankly to me too! I scheduled therapy with out him. I going out of town for a few day without him. He seems concerned about if i'm going out and who i'm going out with. That completely shocks me!!!

I guess I'm writing for some advice and also to get my feelings out. I'm up early because sleeping is still hard, but I also want to get my exercise and shower in before he comes. I'm just trying to figure out how casual I need to be. Also, how to dress, if I wear makeup etc.... I usually don't wear makeup but I have been lately. I dont want him to think its for him cus its not!!!! Its for me . I guess I just answered my own question, huh? Haha!

Thanks for reading the ramblings of a sometime not so cool, calm and collected woman!