It does feel like we're going fast sometimes. But things just come up when they come up. Most of it is at home by myself (hence the e-mails)...in T we spend a lot of time talking about our relationship.

How do I slow it down? I'm not doing it on purpose. It's like I've opened some door in my mind that I've held shut for all of these years, and there's nothing I can do about it.

T did say to me once that our level of contact "might sound like a lot to someone who's not going through the same things you're going through" but that it is fine with him. He said he likes the e-mails because they tell him exactly how I'm doing at a given moment.

But I still worry about it. I'm used to being very, VERY independent, not asking for help, etc. Blah.