I went 5 years symptom free and almost convinced myself I was cured. Holy cr.... then I went all manic and my work knows. It was a brutal public execution. I wish no one knows.
I feel stigmatised. My psychiatrist and GP have given me the go ahead to be full time again. I was part time for a while. But noooo I’ve been told that’s not good enough clearance and if I try do that I will be made to see a panel of external psychiatrists who will ask for all my records from my current psychiatrist and pull up all the dirt on me. I have quite a background as a kid at least and I don’t want them reading that cr.....
I feel defeated. It took so long for stability and they don’t believe it.
I don’t even think I’m asking a question. I’m just ranting about being stigmatised. I bet you if I was booked off part time for major depression I wouldn’t even be making this post.
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