I made some good progress in repairing some rifts.

The pain of knowing they were severed were too much for me to bear.

Patched and reframed are some family relationships.

Mutually, and remaining ended, was a toxic friendship I had with a gf, and also a healthy relationship with one of my sisters. Though, my sister is patched and reframed, too, somewhat, to a new cold, distant neutrality. There’s no more close, warm communication we once shared freely. Her lack of feelings for me was shocking, and the lack of reconnection is on her.

In hindsight, the whole family was a shaky house of cards to begin with.

The toxic friend was someone I gravitated to due to my feeling at home with that dynamic, so it’s good that’s ended. I do miss what I loved about her and wish her well, but enough is enough, especially with someone who is not family.

I feel good to be at a point where I feel a sense of more stability and am proud of myself for being the bigger person to put some of these relationships back into my life.