So, for the past few days, I decided to once again stop taking my antipsychotic meds and without the knowledge of my mother who is in charge of my medication due to my history with meds... I'm still unreliable as I've done what I promised not to do again.
Anyway, last night I couldn't sleep and was on edge all night, you're probably going to tell me it's because I'm not taking my medicine but I know in my heart that I don't need them, I refuse to poison my body with something it doesn't need. My mum won't believe me if I tell her this and she'll be so incredibly disappointed in me, I mean she has just started to trust me. Although she's in charge of my medication, she now passes it to me whilst she's in the same room as me and like I've said, trusts me to take them.
I feel like a really awful person and I'm sick of hiding like this. 😭

I'm at a loss, what do I do?