OpenEyes

Thank you again for your kind and thoughtful words. I do feel like my independence is coming back. We have had another short conversation today. I was not very accommodating or kind. He stopped over to pick up something. I let him because I just don't want to deal with him for a while and I figured rip off that bandaid.

He was trying to be chatty again. I shut that down pretty quick. Said he had popcorn for the kids. I said ok. You can have some too. I said PASS. He seems surprised. Went upstairs and youngest was home so they talked. Im ok with that. then he tried to chat again. I said I don't... and then stopped. He Seemed confused. He then said "Im so so sorry for all of this" I said No you're not. YOu sorry you got caught. But thanks for the apology 24 hours later... we had a calm back and forth in which he asked me "Do you want me to come home?" And I surprised even myself when I said NO. He looked genuinely surprised!!!! I did not expect him to say that, don't know why he did, but I was surprised with the quickness of my answer and so was he. I told him we need to stick to texting, only voice for important stuff. He agreed. I couldn't even look at him. So he said Im going to go now because you hate me and cant stand the sight of me. No argument here!! when he was on my porch I think he hit something because I heard a bang. I really dont know what the hell he wants from me. There was more but this is the highlights