Hello out there,
I don’t write often, but I’m wondering if I’m not alone in this feeling. I work too much. I’m hard-driven, perfectionistic, and once I find that wave I ride it to the end. I put up with a lower salary job with no benefits in exchange for flexibility in my schedule. Basically my boss doesn’t care how I get it done as long as it’s done. I use my mind in my work, and do a lot of writing which I can do from home. But there are occasions in which I must be at work in person at set times, meeting with people or serving people. I’ve been under a lot of stress, as I’m trying to help save my nonprofit company from shutting down. No vacation in 2 years. Paycuts. Hours cut but I still work. And so for several weeks it’s been a blur. I know I’m not taking care of myself as I would like. Yesterday we had a big event where I greeted over 1600 visitors over the course of 8 hours. Today I can’t function! This is my one day off before the race starts again tomorrow. I wanted to trim the shrubs, go for a walk, do yoga, clean my office, all sorts of things. Instead I wake up as a trembling mess. My mind has imaginary lightning bolts shooting out of it in every direction. I can’t hold down a thought long enough to hold a conversation. My heart is racing. It’s like I am petrified; I can’t move. Can anyone relate? Thanks